The one thing I have come to realize is that the past will always haunt you. It doesn't matter how much therapy you go to, how much personal growth you have, or for some people, how much you drink or how high you get. The past will always be there.
A great monkey once said "The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it"
The truth in this statement hurts on many levels.
I have overcome so many things, but the one thing I have not been able to conquer is the voice in my head, his voice in my head. Though it may be quieter than before, the words are still there.
"You are worthless", "No one will ever love you", "You can never be a good mother, your child will hate you and resent you from the moment it's born".
The trick is to accept that this will always be there, the voice and the negative thoughts, but it's how you deal with it now and move on that determines your strength and how you choose to keep living. And keep living you will.
Every day I look at my life and remind myself of what I have achieved, what I have to show that I am better than what he said. My baby, my partner, my home, and my job. The fact that I can get up every day and live my life to its fullest. One day, maybe I can find the mute button on his voice, but for right now, I make sure that my life is louder than him.
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